Symphonies Of Truth

Last year on this blog, I wrote about the fault being in us and not in our stars and how our actions are a ripple effect that governs the things that will eventually take place in our lives. I spoke on the principle of sowing and reaping. However, since then, I have come to realize that there is much more to life than us and the decisions we make. Whether we choose to believe it, we do not govern ourselves. There is a reason why the bible states that the whole world lies under the influence of the evil one. Ephesians 2:1-3 states that  God quickened us, who were dead in trespasses and sins; Wherein in time past, we walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience: Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others. As you can see, free will

I thank God for where He has brought me, and where I am as a person, and the job he has given me. However, I remember once when I was crying out to God, asking Him why I was here and why I did not deserve to be here. Before saying what He told me, let me give you a back story... Finally, I got a job after two years of unemployment. I finally got a JOB! It isn't the job of my dreams but it is a job, and I have had to start at the very bottom of the food chain with a salary that is next to nothing. Nevertheless, it is a job and I'm grateful for it. Anyways, I have this job, and I have worked for a while at the company and there have been instances where I hated the job and loved the job, depending on the situations. Thus I went through this hate/love, hate/love tug of war until I fell into a deep sadness and I realized I was not in love with my job and I wanted more. Give me more! Give me more! More pay! A better position! A better everything! You know, they always say you should